Over the last few weeks I have had some serious emotional ups and downs caused from the impending move to Viva Las Vegas. (you can't just say las vegas you have to say Viva Las Vegas) The house has been on the market for 6-7 weeks now with lots of showings and traffic in our open houses, but not one offer. We've dropped the price as it was the only tangible feedback we got that it was a little high. Other feedback includes closets, yard and kitchen are to small. To those individuals I just say get out of our neighborhood. Seriously people you are looking at a 1928 bungaloo in mid-town. Were you expecting a great room, with walk-in closets and a half acre lot. Stop wasting your realtors time. Oh and if you feel the need to put in a pool then again you are in the wrong neighborhood and price point.
The job hunt continues. I had three interviews with InTouch Federal Credit Union for an Assistant Branch Manager position at the Lake Meade branch. I should know by the end of the month of their decision. This is pretty much the only full interview I have had after two months of looking and applications completed for 84 job postings. Needless to say my batting average is not very high. This is probably why I play volleyball rather than baseball or softball. I continue to look, but have resigned myself that I may have to move without a job and work retail part-time nights and weekends until I can secure something better and full-time.
With all of that I still feel that I have a very blessed life. While it is often hard to remember that it is non-the-less true. Over the last couple of weeks I have struggled with this as many people will. Even the most optimistic individuals have down moments. (well i hope they do) Job hunting to me is one of the most humiliating and de-moralizing activity alive. You look through thousands of job postings every week and maybe, if you are lucky, find 5 or 6 to apply for. You read through them carefully at first to see if you are interested and if you have all the necessary qualification. You find the one item you don't have and you focus on that and determine if you can overcome that in the interview process. At the beginning of your search you may say no I shouldn't apply. By week three your eyeballs want to run from your head when simplyhired or indeed appear on the screen and you are submitting for any job that looks vaguely interesting. By week 7 or 8 you feel utterly unqualified for any, but the most menial jobs and just want to sell your possession and live in a box by the river where you belong.
However, none of paragraph three is true or really matters. My self worth is not determined by a job posting or what skills I do or do not have. My self worth is determined by the person that I am, what contributions I make to society and how I interact and treat those around me. I AM BLESSED in that I have an amazing life. I have people that love me unconditionally, I'm a good person and try hard to be thoughtful and caring to those around me and beyond and I contribute to make the world a better place by trying to be the best me I can be. I AM BLESSED in that I have food in my tummy, a roof over my head and a few coins in my pocket. In many parts of the world there are millions of people who cannot say that same sentence.
I will admit to moments of weakness over the last three weeks. The flood gates opened and my life was very brown. I fought to stem the flow of negativity and close the gates of self doubt. I'm not back to 100%, but with this I get closer. I've admitted my struggles. I've accepted the things I cannot change. I've aligned my karma with good things. I no longer pray at night to Daddy to sell the house or find a job. I pray to ask for help in listening. Listening for the message that I'm meant to receive through all of this.
Peace, Love and Puppy Dogs,
John
The job hunt continues. I had three interviews with InTouch Federal Credit Union for an Assistant Branch Manager position at the Lake Meade branch. I should know by the end of the month of their decision. This is pretty much the only full interview I have had after two months of looking and applications completed for 84 job postings. Needless to say my batting average is not very high. This is probably why I play volleyball rather than baseball or softball. I continue to look, but have resigned myself that I may have to move without a job and work retail part-time nights and weekends until I can secure something better and full-time.
With all of that I still feel that I have a very blessed life. While it is often hard to remember that it is non-the-less true. Over the last couple of weeks I have struggled with this as many people will. Even the most optimistic individuals have down moments. (well i hope they do) Job hunting to me is one of the most humiliating and de-moralizing activity alive. You look through thousands of job postings every week and maybe, if you are lucky, find 5 or 6 to apply for. You read through them carefully at first to see if you are interested and if you have all the necessary qualification. You find the one item you don't have and you focus on that and determine if you can overcome that in the interview process. At the beginning of your search you may say no I shouldn't apply. By week three your eyeballs want to run from your head when simplyhired or indeed appear on the screen and you are submitting for any job that looks vaguely interesting. By week 7 or 8 you feel utterly unqualified for any, but the most menial jobs and just want to sell your possession and live in a box by the river where you belong.
However, none of paragraph three is true or really matters. My self worth is not determined by a job posting or what skills I do or do not have. My self worth is determined by the person that I am, what contributions I make to society and how I interact and treat those around me. I AM BLESSED in that I have an amazing life. I have people that love me unconditionally, I'm a good person and try hard to be thoughtful and caring to those around me and beyond and I contribute to make the world a better place by trying to be the best me I can be. I AM BLESSED in that I have food in my tummy, a roof over my head and a few coins in my pocket. In many parts of the world there are millions of people who cannot say that same sentence.
I will admit to moments of weakness over the last three weeks. The flood gates opened and my life was very brown. I fought to stem the flow of negativity and close the gates of self doubt. I'm not back to 100%, but with this I get closer. I've admitted my struggles. I've accepted the things I cannot change. I've aligned my karma with good things. I no longer pray at night to Daddy to sell the house or find a job. I pray to ask for help in listening. Listening for the message that I'm meant to receive through all of this.
Peace, Love and Puppy Dogs,
John
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